1. |
Forgetting
02:03
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this night is ending
a perfect start to the rest of this episode
why does it get so cold
oh i don't know
i keep forgetting
i'm a crutch and nothing more
lying on the cold hard floor
and now it's spreading
to all the people that we know and love
how could they be so rude
oh i don't know
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2. |
October Hoffman
03:36
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3. |
3am
02:11
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it's 3am i'm up again
can't get out of bed can't get out of my head
it was outside your house that you told me
that it's too late and you couldn't see me
i never felt so lost, felt so broken
now that i'm on my own i'll just keep beating on
it's 3am i'm out again
don't know where i am and where the fuck is sam
it was outside your house that you told me
that it's too late and you couldn't see me
i never felt so lost, felt so broken
now that i'm on my own i'll just keep beating on
last sunday night when i saw your sister
gave me a hug and said you'd been crying
i'm just a little bitter, not broken
now that i'm on my own i'll just keep beating on
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4. |
Mikal Sarah
02:14
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take my hand
it's more than we had planned, but that's okay
i'll do it anyway, oh go away
i'm watching you tonight
don't fight me cause i'm just another one
and now
i think you're what i want
can't tell, but i am falling harder for you
each night i have these dreams, you're there
please save me from despair
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5. |
Buried
04:31
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6. |
Views
03:07
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taking back the things i thought i didn't say
but the only forgiveness i get is it's okay
it's not okay
barely making the frayed ends meet
slowly killing myself but i'm doing it anyway
anyway
don't you
feel like
there is
value
in finding
value
in the
journey
i think
i might
but i
can't fix
your broken
outlook
i'm probably wrong anyway
she said she didn't want to be alive
i'm not sure that i could even disagree
what's the point of doing all these pointless things
everything ends the same way anyway
don't you
feel like
there is
value
in finding
value
in the
journey
i think
i might
but i
can't fix
your broken
outlook
i'm probably wrong anyway
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7. |
interlude
00:58
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8. |
Broke & Broken
02:50
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and she said it's not easy you have to tell me what to do
but she knows i'm just as lost and helpless too
and i can't be responsible for the way you sort your thoughts
but that has turned out far more convoluted than i thought
it's not like i've never done this before
i'm confused and all alone
it's not like i've never done this before
but i'm broke and broken and i'm on my own
i thought that someday we'd be careless and we'd be fine
living ignorant to the things we left behind
but you are damaged and i thought i was immune
and now we're riding tandem because i am damaged too
it's not like i've never done this before
i'm confused and all alone
it's not like i've never done this before
but i'm broke and broken and i'm on my own
it's not like i've never done this before
i'm confused and all alone
it's not like i've never done this before
but i'm broke and broken and i'm on my own
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9. |
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i couldn't say what i wanted to say
but i'm sitting here drinking and it's all okay
i don't know what you wanted from me, but it's getting really cold
and i don't wanna go away
push pull and i'm over again and we'll follow the routine how can we be friends and
everything i do is totally fucked i'm trying harder and harder and i am still out of luck
my future self is a stranger
what he goes through then
doesn't mean a single thing to
me right now
so i'll sink into my self-destruction
again and again
waking up and i'm all out of line
i'm a slow-burnt-baked-drunken mess all the time
and i do it again disregarding any consequence but i can't pretend that
it doesn't hurt and i know it kills me but where would the thrill be in a life of fulfillment
nanananananananananananananananana
my future self is a stranger
what he goes through then
doesn't mean a single thing to
me right now
so i'll sink into my self-destruction
again and again
and i know it's my time
and i know i will die
i'm gonna die
and that's alright
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10. |
Saturnalia
04:00
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over the river over the mountain
we could get lost in the snow
every shiver i heard the sound and wrapped you in layers of quilted wool
what'cha think about all the things i said
i will never believe in a coat of red
do you want to see the forest for the trees
maybe everything can be as magic as it seems
and if your wishes all materialize
will you take them and be blind
but if you're looking through the white of the storm
there's a grateful kind of warmth
the drifts are piling up but we're not gonna stop we've got a date tonight we've gotta keep so there's no time to sleep
whatever you just said flew right over my head so please repeat whatever you just said cause nothings makin' sense so keep me awake
what'cha think about all the things i said
i will never believe in a coat of red
do you want to see the forest for the trees
maybe everything can be as magic as it seems
and if your wishes all materialize
will you take them and be blind
but if you're looking through the white of the of the storm
there's a grateful kind of warmth
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11. |
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smoking cigarettes and i'm
late for work again but i work from home
so it's not that far but i'm
indisposed lying
in my bed
motionless
motionless
oh it's a wreck
i don't know if i can go
to life to day
and put in the effort to make it seem like
i'm not failing
i'm not good enough
nothing's good enough and we're
in disguise as the shells of ourselves living
day to day but it's
hard today
i'm not sure if i can finish anything
i don't know if i can go
to life to day
and put in the effort to make it seem like
i'm okay
i'm okay
i'm just okay
i'm okay
i'm just okay
i don't know if i can go
to life to day
and put in the effort to make it seem like
i'm not failing
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12. |
fin.
04:14
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so why don't you take
me again away from my schemes
wailing at the thought of denial
a compass
broken but right time to time
spiraling about all the progress
others have made before i
and i'm just as good as them
why waste it you've got so much i
don't know what the crowd is dancing about
i'm taken but i don't want to be
wide awake and it's just apathy
it's safe to say
this bed will be empty for a while
an excess of those detrimental
sharp against soft and you freeze
maybe it's time for the ending
and if you've got nothing to show
who then can fix this
oh i think it's easy to tell
and it said
oh why taste it you talk too much i'm
not sure why this is so rough
i'm wasted but i don't want to be
alone tonight but please just talk to me
why waste it you've got so much i
don't know what the crowd is dancing about
i'm taken but i don't want to be
wide awake and it's just apathy
why won't this end
it's all i've ever wanted and thought but
never conveyed it's my mind
poisoned by itself you were right
i should get help because i'm
so tired of losing to you
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Grandfather Portland, Oregon
semisensical somethingerother from portland, thrown together quickly and carelessly by four degenerate children
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